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  DRUE HEINZ LITERATURE PRIZE

  IT FALLS GENTLY ALL AROUND

  And Other Stories

  RAMONA REEVES

  University of Pittsburgh Press

  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, organizations, places, events, and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. This work is not meant to, nor should it be interpreted to, portray any specific persons living or dead.

  Published by the University of Pittsburgh Press, Pittsburgh, Pa., 15260

  Copyright © 2022, Ramona Reeves

  All rights reserved

  Manufactured in the United States of America

  Printed on acid-free paper

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  Cataloging-in-Publication data is available from the Library of Congress

  ISBN 13: 978-0-8229-4749-3

  ISBN 10: 0-8229-4749-8

  Cover art: ©Shutterstock, Flickr/ Boston Public Library

  Cover design: Jordan Wannemacher

  ISBN-13: 978-0-8229-8924-0 (electronic)

  To my mother

  Class is everywhere in the South, and I don’t know about other parts of the world, but I think it’s everywhere.

  MARY WARD BROWN

  Beneath the lights and shadows there is the brooding spirit of place, but, deeper still, beneath the spirit of place there is the whole movement of life.

  ELLEN GLASGOW

  CONTENTS

  LAST CALL

  THE BALANCED SIDE

  SIGHTING DOLPHINS

  IT FALLS GENTLY ALL AROUND

  GIVING WAY TO ZZ TOP

  APHRODITE RECLINING

  ANNIVERSARY

  THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE DASH

  THE ONCE FAMOUS PAIR

  QUEEN OF FROGS

  WHEEL OF FORTUNE

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  LAST CALL

  2005

  SUMMER IN MOBILE COULD strip Babbie bare. The early morning air, salty and talking rain, clung to the back of her neck. And though she appreciated how her lab coat flattered her spray-on tan, an enhancement to skin that was otherwise as white as a blank greeting card no one cared to send, the coat made zero sense in June. This was her last cigarette break, forty-five minutes before her shift ended at Gulf Coast General. She’d been working there nights going on three months and in under an hour would be cashiering and scanning the bar codes of Cokes and potato chips at her other job at the truck stop. She preferred the grind of it all—two jobs, two kids, single parenting—to scrounging. Although she could do with less humidity and more time, she could not do with less money.

  Down the road, the morning blushed hopeful until two ambulances broke through, spoiling the sight. The scat scat scat of sprinklers faded into the squall of sirens and left her no choice but to stub out her cigarette. She dropped the unsmoked half into the pocket of her lab coat and passed beneath the ER’s sign, brightly lit in a motel neon even the dead in Mobile could see. And god knows there were plenty of dead in the miles surrounding this hospital on a hill, people dead for centuries under live oaks that had outlived them all and seemed to be fanning the dearly and not so dearly departed when a cool breeze found the city.

  Truth was, Babbie wasn’t all that fond of sick people, especially the kind that rode up in ambulances. Petite yet curvy, she tried to stay out of the way, unlike the ER’s head nurse Penelope, who was tall and Black with a wavy hairdo, a woman who waged war when she worked. From a certain angle, it wasn’t hard to imagine her stethoscope as a slingshot, and it was Penelope who now led the ER staff swarming the new arrivals. “They staged a drunken duel,” she shouted, “with what they thought were empty pistols.”

  Paramedics slid stretchers from the two vehicles like fresh bread loaves. Opposite the ER, Babbie hunched into a corner and watched. She was a clerk in the hospital’s lab. Basically a glorified receptionist. Rowan, the best of her ex-husbands and a hospital bigwig, had paid for her to take the weeklong class that certified her to collect tubes, enter codes into a computer, and then move the tubes to a refrigerator to await testing. She answered the lab’s phone, looked up orders, and transferred calls. The job was easy and paid $9.25 an hour, better than any she’d worked before, but—and it was a big, damn but—when the ER hit capacity, they drafted her to watch monitors and assist as needed. In a larger city she might have escaped this duty, but like all the hospitals near downtown Mobile, Gulf Coast General catered to all the city’s residents and stretched a pound of resources to meet three pounds of need. She was that dollop of ketchup added to the ER’s bread crumbs, and this was sure to be one of those nights. The ER was already treating a burn case, a heart attack, and a couple in a car accident.

  She dreaded stripping another stained sheet or emptying more bedpans. Not that she was a wuss. She’d handled plenty of her children’s bodily fluids when they were young, but these people weren’t her children. If she’d learned anything, it was that one person’s calling was another person’s penance.

  The first stretcher rolled past. “He’s the lucky one,” Penelope told an ER nurse. “Got it in the shoulder. The other one got it in the family pride.” The nurse’s reaction matched the cartoonish penguins somersaulting on her pink scrub top.

  Babbie flinched when she saw the second stretcher, not because it was soaked taillight red, but because the man rolling past was Skipper. Months ago, when they’d met, he’d claimed to captain a shrimp boat, though he was probably a header who readied trawlers and sorted shrimp. The sight of him took her back to the half dozen years working at the Dogwood Motel off Highway 90.

  In January, she’d been naked and on her back in the little room containing scratched veneer furniture and the framed but lumpy poster of long-ago ladies holding parasols. Her flip-flops wedged the door so she could listen for the bell that rang when a customer needed assistance. In her official capacity, she had been the motel’s overnight clerk at $7 an hour. In her unofficial capacity, she had been someone else entirely. During those times, she had locked the main entrance and posted a No Vacancy sign.

  Skipper had been a relapse. For months before him, there had been no other men. She had wanted to get by without the fast money, without the feeling of being skinned by a stranger’s calloused hands, but when her daughter’s bronchitis turned into pneumonia, she caved to pay the doctor.

  Since working at the hospital, she’d tried to forget the names of the men, but she could not forget Skipper’s. Without warning, he’d locked his fingers around her neck and nearly choked her to death as he climaxed. She’d heard about such nonsense, men aroused by briefly cutting off the oxygen of their partners, but he hadn’t warned her, likely because she would have said no. She had knocked her heels against his calves and beat his back with her fists. She’d yanked on his stringy hair, a fevered yellow, but her resistance only heightened his response. And then the door had flown open, and a flip-flop had sailed across the room.

  No one at the hospital or the truck stop knew about the men. No one knew at all, except her former boss at the motel, and him only because he’d been drinking at the bar next door—a detail that had caught Babbie off guard and which she’d later learned from a housekeeper. He’d stumbled into his motel screaming about the lit No Vacancy sign. Skipper was slow to move, didn’t understand what was happening. She was standing but still naked when her boss barged in on them. She’d yanked a blanket from the bed to cover herself before fleeing into the bathroom, locking the door and refusing to leave for hours. The manager shouted for Skipper to get the hell out, and Skipper told him to screw off.

  “Your girlfriend’s out of a job beca
use of you,” the manager said.

  Skipper chuckled. “Aw, hell, she ain’t my girlfriend. She’s a whore. I got her number from a friend. Quite a setup she’s got here.”

  “Leave or I’m calling the cops,” the manager said. Which Babbie knew he would never do because he didn’t want anyone from the city snooping around and finding code violations.

  “Sayonara,” she heard Skipper say.

  In the minutes before the manager banged on the bathroom door, she had time to think about her life and regret most of it. Until that night, her boss had often told her she had nice legs and a good shape.

  “Your little slutfest is over,” he yelled. “I could kill you, but for what? You’re not worth it.”

  She slumped into a corner and cried.

  Hours later, Liling, one of the housekeepers who always arrived early, knocked gently on the door and offered her a warm washcloth for her face. Babbie let her in, and Liling closed the toilet lid and told her to sit. She pushed Babbie’s hair back and wiped her face with the warm cloth. Moist and soothing, it seemed to wash away the worst of her deeds. No one, she felt, had ever mothered her this way.

  “No shame,” Liling had said, “to survive. You will do better now.”

  Having guessed Liling’s story from her comments about growing up in Vietnam, Babbie had understood they shared secrets and the knowledge that anything could be sold.

  But standing here in this hospital hallway, watching ER staff rush in and out, Babbie felt her heart race, and beads of sweat collected on her forehead. A part of her felt chained to the motel’s cigarette-burned carpet and the front desk’s mildewed Thomas Kinkade calendar. A half-life was better than having to accept the whole of what she’d done.

  In two months she would turn forty, a welcome new decade. Maybe she would have a new life. She was not her past. It was just that sometimes her feelings swam too close to shore, a flounder that could not survive if it swam too shallow or exposed too much to the wrong people. Sometimes the darkness was safer than the light. She could not face the man who reminded her of what she was trying to leave behind. She felt the floodlights scanning the water and the poles ready to gig her dead center. She fled the ER and Skipper, but not without Penelope noticing. “Hey, Babbie,” she shouted, “we need you in the ER.”

  Babbie hid in the big stall because no decent person would disturb a woman there. She closed the toilet lid and sat among the gleaming pinkish tiles. Deciding it was best to hide her hot-pink rubber shoes—imposters of the good brand most of the RNs wore—she stepped onto the toilet, crouched, and pressed one hand against the slick metal divider that separated her from the next john.

  She blamed Rowan for her predicament, for getting her this job in the first place. Surely he had other connections with jobs better suited to her lack of skills. Anyone could look at her turquoise fingernails and dark roots and see she blended better with the aisles of the Party City superstore than the hospital’s oatmeal-colored walls, but Rowan had convinced her that she would get used to the job and its requirements. “It’ll provide stability, better income, insurance,” he’d said. “Plus it’ll look good on your résumé.”

  She didn’t ask “What résumé?” but the question was there, begging to be acknowledged. In the end, he was right about the pay and the insurance, which meant more to her than most people could imagine.

  Another woman entered the room, likely a nurse or a CNA given the early hour. The intruder’s soles squeaked against the glaring ceramic floor.

  “Babbie, are you in here?”

  She did not answer the voice she recognized as Penelope’s and instead tightened her body into a ball. The first time she’d met Penelope she’d been filing a broken nail at her desk. “Maybe there isn’t enough work,” the head nurse had said, “for a full-time overnight clerk.”

  Babbie had slid the nail file into her pocket and locked her lips into smile position. “I broke one,” she replied. “You know how that is.”

  Penelope had flipped her employee badge back and forth between the fingers of one hand like someone who juggled knives in their spare time. “That’s why I keep my nails short,” she’d replied, “but at least you’re not on the phone all hours like the last one. Texting and talking to Lord knows who.”

  Penelope let out an exasperated sigh inside the restroom before testing the door of the big stall. Babbie appreciated its tight seal, unlike the half-inch gaps between the stall doors at her other job. She sank her face into her knees and held her breath. She regretted not hiding in the morgue, but earlier that week, she’d dropped off a specimen and seen lumpy remains draped on a stretcher. Her flesh had gone cold and moist. Her knees had locked. She’d only managed to settle down by imagining the sheet as a tablecloth and the lumps as pots and pans.

  Penelope left, but outside the restroom, her voice boomed. Babbie strained to hear, unable to make out the words. Unlike the walls at the motel, the hospital’s defied eavesdropping.

  She relaxed and allowed her feet to touch the floor. Just for a moment. She planned to ride out the rest of her shift in the stall, out of Penelope’s reach. She knew the woman would not give up. Babbie had gathered that much from working in the lab. When the ER nurses dropped off specimens, sometimes they gossiped about Penelope’s husband, an insurance adjuster too fond of settling up the policies of newly widowed women. “Why does such a smart lady stay with a man like that?” they would ask.

  More than once Babbie had responded, “Maybe it’s what she deserves,” but after dealing with three husbands of her own, she didn’t really believe it. People said a woman had choices, but they never said how few those choices could be. Everyone had a gift, though, and she had accepted hers. She knew the right color of blond to get noticed, the right way to apply lipstick for full and natural-looking lips, how to hold her cheeks and her smile just so to show off the teeth she bleached with a home kit from Dollar General. Yet every morning the mirror forced the truth of her waning beauty: darker gullies beneath her eyes, a rebel gray hair, fat around her thighs. Knowing this, she’d placed a premium on her services and had never accepted less than $200. Never given any man more than an hour. After the incident with Skipper, she’d vowed to look in the mirror a lot less, thinking when she did look, there would be someone new to see. So far, she’d seen only the woman from the motel staring back at her, daring her to change.

  Toilets flushed, zippers zipped, and wrappers were torn from tampons and pads. Four women came and went in silence. Babbie did not make herself known.

  Then two more women entered the restroom, went about their business, and convened at the sinks. They traded polite greetings before one asked, “How’s your son?”

  “He got fired by a computer company over in Atlanta.”

  Babbie recognized the first voice as the overnight phlebotomist who was generally pleasant and upbeat, and the second as the clerk in post-op, who was always flapping her gums when Babbie collected the unit’s tubes.

  “You know,” the clerk said, “I warned him they wouldn’t go in for his big mouth.”

  “Seems like good advice.”

  “Yeah,” the clerk replied. “But then he tried to act like he knew everything. Didn’t ask questions, so they let him go.”

  “That’s a shame,” the phlebotomist responded, “but maybe he’s learned his lesson.”

  From the conversation it was obvious the phlebotomist had no sons, and the unit clerk had none like Bo, Babbie’s nineteen-year-old who was serving time for burglary. She hoped her daughter would take a better path, but already the nearly thirteen-year-old gravitated toward shorts that allowed her backside to bubble beneath the hems. Bo had been sixteen and old enough to drive in the great state of Alabama when he’d gotten his first DUI, but he wasn’t old enough to be punished like an adult, and for that reason, Babbie had believed he could still be saved. The Blue Haven rehab facility quoted her two grand to dry him out. When she asked for a discount, a secretary with square designer glasses told B
abbie she was already on a sliding scale. As if she didn’t know.

  “There’s no call to get nasty,” she’d told the secretary.

  The woman patted her hand. “It means the cost is based on your income.”

  “What income?”

  Babbie had maxed out her credit card paying for car repairs, doctors’ visits, and interest on past-due bills. Those were in addition to feeding and clothing and transporting her kids. She knew better than to borrow from the payday loan gougers and had never received child support from either of her kids’ dads. Her toothless parents, who lived outside of Mobile in a trailer, survived on Medicaid and a Baptist food bank. Blue Haven and the fancified secretary might as well have asked for a million bucks.

  Before the phlebotomist and unit clerk parted ways, Babbie wanted to appear and tell them both their lives were easy, but they were gone quickly, and minutes later, another pair of shoes tapped hard on the tiled bathroom floor.

  “Get down,” a man’s voice said. “You think it’s attractive, a middle-aged woman perched on a toilet?”

  “This is a women’s restroom,” Babbie replied, but unlatched the door anyway and allowed it to swing open.

  Although Rowan had aged in the two decades since their divorce, he was still good-looking, the only redhead she’d ever been attracted to. When she’d contacted him in March, she’d imagined him saying how good she looked, too. And he had said she looked good, but just like that. “You look good.” Plain. Only the slightest curl at the ends of his lips.

  Rowan held the stall door open with one hand as though he expected her to leave.

  “You oughta be at home,” she told him. “The sun’s barely up.”

  “I wanted to catch up on email,” he replied, “but as soon as I arrived, Penelope flagged me down looking for you. Now, stop this nonsense and get out of here.”

  Babbie had seen him checking email on his BlackBerry dozens of times and couldn’t imagine what he gained by checking it at the hospital. If anything, he lost sleep. He certainly hadn’t wanted to meet early when she’d contacted him to ask for money or a second job.